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        			    November 4, 2009 - 6:57pm			  			

			
			
I feel like I have been cheated with time with Jack, We meet in June 2009 and he was dx in Aug 2009, and I decided to stay and we fell so much in love, We had such a short time and most of the time was fighting cancer, The world lost an amazing drummer, and I lost the 2ns chance of love, so where do I go from here, My heart actually hurts, I just cant imagine my life with Jack I called him my ROckstar and everyone thought it was because he was a drummer, but that is not so  


it was because

ROCK -- he was the rock that held me together

STAR -- Is the star I wish on everynight and thank for bring him in to my life,


So now my ROckstar is gone, I never felt this kind of pain, and I hope Jack sends me a sign that he is ok and he made it safe


Ans I am going to warn you please becareful who you trust to look after your love one, at the end we had such a bad experience with the hospice nurse, she even told me I could not be in there with Jack, but now we know why she was sleeping when she was suppose to be taking care of him and she actually came high the last night she was here, and Jack's Ipod came up missing that night, and it was a special ipod it was special engrave for Jack, and she was so bad we came in and his mouth was full of blood she was not watching him and he bit his tongue and had to be rushed to the hospital, So please be careful who is watching your love one, Jack suffered because of this nurse, I am writing a complaint letter to Hospice even though I reported her to her supervisior


I just hope Jack will send me a sigh, to let me know he made it safe and he is ok


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November 4, 2009 - 8:08pm

			
Patty
			
My prayers are with both you and Jack tonight.  He WILL send you a sign...just be open to it!


((((HUGS))))



			
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November 4, 2009 - 8:58pm

			
Michelle is right
			
Jack will send you a sign. 


You have been so strong and Jack would want you to continue to be. He will always be your Rockstar, nothing can ever take that away from you. 


You are in my prayers.


Sherry



			
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November 5, 2009 - 9:54am

			
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Open up your heart and there will be signs.  My father suddenly passed away and I went to Colorado from Florida to pick up his ashes to bring him home with me.  At age 65 we hadn't any idea that he soon would pass but our last conversation days before, he had told me a funny story about picking up a turtle to take back to California from a vacation he was on with my Mother.  He told me that he didn't know the turtle was dangerous and that he and my mom were driving back to Calif from South Florida  when his fishing pole moved in the back seat and the hook caught my mom's shirt.  My mom started screaming because at the end of the pole was the turtle and it snapped it right in half.  My Dad pulled over the car and my mom was struggling to get out but was now hooked to the turtle.  My Dad ended up throwing the turtle and his expensive Rod and reel right out of the car, having to cut it away from my hysterical Mom.  He said he would never forget that story and it makes him laugh all of the time.  We just started to talk about if any happened to him, he said he didn't want to bother me with all the details so he arranged to be cremated and buried at this cemetery near his home.  There are no family where he lived so I said to my Dad, "If anything happens to you, I will pick you up and bring you home and plant a lemon tree in my yard and that is where you will be because you are always so ornery.  He laughed about that and five days later he went unexpectedly.


Now, I am home with my three kids and husband.  We went out to get a lemon tree.  We said a prayer and we placed his ashes under the tree.  It was very emotional but I knew my Dad would be happy.  So after we were all done, my husband and I were sitting on the porch and the kids came running in and screamed come quick, so we ran outside and there sitting next to the lemon tree was the biggest snapping turtle I had ever seen.  He just appeared out of nowhere and I know in my heart it was definitely a sign from my Dad saying everything is okay.  Just thought I would share with you this wonderful experience.


Sherri



			
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