Oct 13, 2009 - 2:38 am
I have recently discovered what I thought was just me, but turns out to be somewhat of an epidemic among cancer survivors called "chemo-brain". I noticed it immediately after my first treatment. I was in a constant state of intense confusion. I had to rely on others to keep my appointments, couldnt remember my age, names, some faces, dates and numbers, etc.. 21 years later, this is still going on, and just as bad if not worse. I've lived my life in a cloud and didn't know how to tell anyone. It is embarassing to say the least of a man who's IQ in high school was 156. I'm still intelligent, I just have troubles putting the pieces together. I have found this to be a major disability and hinderance to any careers I have attempted. In 20 years, I have had over 80 different jobs because I cannot concentrate enough to accomplish the most menial tasks without total distraction. There are no tests that I know of for diagnosis, but there is a drug that helps a bit called Provigil. Other than that, I haven't much hope. I have applied for disability many times and been denied. I'm losing my train of thought right now.....anyway, it's hard to get by without full cognance or whatever the word is I'm looking for. Right now I'm having a Dejavu of having already done this (I get these very frequently, about once a week or more).