Cancer Survivors Network

I am 27 years old and was diagnosed with cervical cancer June of this year, after having 2 colposcopies, 1 miscarriage, 1 birth, and a conization. My husband was deployed to Afghanistan when I got the news that I have cancer. He was immediately sent home. I am going to UNC for my care. I was diagnosed with stage 1b2 and later had a PET which showed it had spread to my lower lymphnodes. I was scheduled for surgery the day after my 27th birthday and the first day of school for my 8 year old son. I was to have a radical hysterectomy and dissection of lymphnodes and have the ones removed. Well I woke up later to find I didn't have a hysterectomy. I was so upset I was crying. They found an egg sized tumor in my lymphnodes wrapped around some nerve and he worked at removing that. I am scheduled for a consult with the radiation guy in 1-2 weeks and have been told I will have low doses of chemo through an IV and internal/external radiation.
Who knows that may change when I actually talk with the radation guy. I am so scared, scared for my life and for my babies. I have a daughter who will be turning 1 next month. I have been so hopeful up until this point. It seems like each time I go see the oncologist I'm a step further from becoming a survivor, treatment keeps changing. I just want to beat this.
Thank you to any who have read this.