Apr 30, 2009 - 10:37 pm
I came out here tonight actually to have another little pity party for myself- sit and cry and cry and try to catch any little air that might make it to my right nostril that is closing up fast.. (the left one with the tumor in the sinus cavity is getting lonely.))I went in to a room and there was nobody there. I was about to log out and something said to read the message board and I found the discussion on Squamous cell. THANK YOU ALL THAT WROTE. While I read it was aggressive in one case (and I believe it is agressive in my case but won't know until I see the Chemical Brothers on Friday and I dont mean the rave band) The other posts I read were quite uplifting and positive. So what I wont have cigarettes to look forward to- or all night booze-ups- but I will be able to look forward to being healthier, to ENJOYING life not just going through the motions of it. Realizing its not jewels or clothes or cash that makes life great- it's just life itself thats so amazing. I need inspiration and hope. Again Hope can come from strange places.. thank God for strange places. God bless you all who are fighting the fight and winning. I want some of that spirit to rub off on me. I want to LIVE!