Apr 08, 2009 - 3:05 pm
It will be five years out of treatment May 6, 2009 and I still can't move on. I was diagnosed two weeks before my 35th birthday. Life was good, great job, owned my own home, great friends, dating and having fun :) then it all hit like a ton of bricks! Lost my breast, my job, my house, my friends, my reproductive system and have been in menapause now for years! Everyone wants me to "get back to normal" and they miss the "old" Michelle. I am pretty sure she has left the building however I am with them...I want her back too! I keep saying that once I get back to the gym and lose the weight that I have gained due to the menapause then I will feel great and all will be right with my world again. The man of my dreams will appear and not care that I have one breast that looks different than the other. I don't know I guess I just need to know that I am not the only one out there (I know I am not) feeling all of these things. I do have to say one more thing on this post...I am truly lucky to have survived something that so many of our sisters did not!! I am thankful for having another day as well as hopeful that we will find a cure for this monster so that we don't lose another sister or brother to this disease!! Thanks for reading and thanks for any thoughts you may have.