Jun 23, 2006 - 5:55 am
I was diagnosed with subungual malignant melanoma 4mm thick on February.Since then I have had my toe amputated and a bit of bone taken from my foot.I have made an excellent recovery from the surgery. Everyone kept telling me how amazed they were at how I coped with the diagnosis and treatment, and i must say i surprised myself. I kept everything as normal as possble and kept positive throughout. But now its a different story, I have had my path report and ct scan and told I have the all clear, although i still have to go to my hospital every 3 months for the next 5 years and also the beatson cancer clinic every 3 months, but to me thats peace of mind.What the hell is wrong with me? I feel so guilty as there are people out there alot worse off than me. I should be on top of the world, shouting from the roof tops - Ive got the all clear!!I just feel so down now. I have this big heavy weight in my tummy and it wont go.I dont want to talk to my family, friends as they are so happy for me.