Need to refuel with hope...

2bhealed said:

Hey honey,

first things first (((((((wanda)))))))

ok hugs aside.

To answer your question:

YES!! The feeling was there--would it work or not work? I STILL ask the question. I STILL wonder if it will come back or spread. Either way one chooses the questions remain.

But the difference is that I have FAITH in alternatives and did NOT have faith in the chemo. That would have been counterproductive had I gone the chemo route.

I based my final decision on three things:

1) my grandfather, aunt and sister all used western medicine to treat their cancer and it's symptoms and they all died.

2) when I went to the chemo clinic to consult with the oncologist who would have administered my chemo, they were serving the patients donuts. duh. no brainer there. How could I possibly trust a doctor to "heal" my cancer when he was feeding his cancer patients cancer-feeding garbage food.

3) the theory behind chemo (kill ALL cells healthy or otherwise) does not line up with my philosophy on healing the body of disease allowed to manifest by imbalances in the body, ie nutrition, stress, lack of exercise etc.


So for me it boiled down to faith. I put my faith in God to direct my path and heal me. Does that mean that I never stumble in that faith? No. But it does mean that I never give up that faith.

I have two books to recommend to read in conjunction with Quillins, wanda.

1) When Hope Never Dies by Marlene McKenna

2) A Cancer Battle Plan by Anne Frahm


These are two "testimony" books that will give you some peace and direction in the alternative pursuits.

As for someone with colon mets I cannot think of anyone off hand. I do know a woman (she was in my homeschool support group) whose child had tumors wrapped all around his vital organs so they sent him home from Mayo to die. They could not remove the tumors since they were wrapped around his heart and things. But his mother refused to give up hope and by the grace of God found out about juicing and detoxing and supplements (Prescription for Nutritional Healing by Balch and Balch) and found a doc who would put a tube directly into the boys stomach and they just juiced him and ground up supplements and pumped it directly into his gut. He is alive today over 10 years later and last summer road with Lance in his Ride for the Roses.

I used to have extra copies of her book--Your Child Does Not Have To Die by Leanne Sorteberg--but I cannot find them at the moment.

Anyway---the tumors had sent out tentricles (sp?) like an octopus and after testing, it revealed that they had retracted and the tumors encapsulated and died. They are still in there but they are dead.

So wanda YOU GO GIRL!!!

Here's your refuel. God has led you on this path and He has a purpose for your life.

This was my verse mantra that I wrote on my bedroom wall above my bed to remind me daily (it became the first of many bible verses I ended up writing on my wall--I had really ugly wall paper that I had planned to tear down but after I wrote my comforting verses all over it I ended up leaving it until we moved!)


"'I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,' declares the Lord." Jeremiah 30:17


peace, emily who daily must walk holding onto this promise