Apr 12, 2005 - 9:44 pm
Hi to my dear friends.
This is going to be long, because I need it to be.
Some of you know, but most probably don't. I am Stage IV, dxed Feb. 2004 (mets to the liver and left lung). I did the chemo route for 8 months but after 4 months of a "plateau", I chose to try alternative methods of wellness and healing. I choose to stop chemo in mid November 2004 and completely changed my diet, while juicing and many, many other things.
So here I sit going in for my first testing since Jan. 05 (I was still at a plateau then too).
Yes, I am somewhat fearful, but not scared like I usually am. I have no idea why, other then I feel so durn good. I have no idea what tomorrow may bring (my test are Thursday and I find out the results on Friday the 15th, tax day), and am really at a point where tomorrow will bring what it may, but it is not going to stop me from enjoying today. Our friend Andrea taught me that..."This cancer may eventually kill me, but not today".
Maybe it is just that where I live the azaleas and dogwoods are blooming and "my hummingbirds" just came back today to spend their summer with me. And then maybe it was the first fresh lettuces I ate tonight that came out of my spring garden (I had never grown it before and am amazed that lettuce really does have a taste and wonderful flavor).
I don't have a clue why I am posting this, but felt I needed to.
Mostly, I just want to thank you all for making me feel comfortable enough to post in the first place.
Hugs to you all and I hope your hummingbirds come back home to you tomorrow.