Jan 13, 2004 - 12:55 am
I lost my mother in May 2003 to pancreatic cancer. The mistake that I made was that I keep myself so busy I was barely sleeping just one project after another I literally was afraid to stop. I was afraid to deal with it and accept it. Well all the projects ended near the end of November and it hit like a ton of brick 7 months later and I am feeling the pain more than ever. I really thought it would get easier with time but it seems to be getting harder. I guess what I am trying to say is whatever emotions you are going through when you lose a loved one let them out go through all the stages so that you can get to the point where you can remember them with a smile. I find that I have to talk to Mom all the time and I think sometimes that I can hear her answer me, probably more wishful thinking than anything but none the less it keeps her here with me.