Jun 05, 2002 - 12:09 pm
Well ladies didn't make the flight, I had to cancel at the last minute because I was to ill to travel. I suddenely had a horrid attack where my body pored water from every oraphus of my body and throwing up all over. When I am sick like this I can't do anything, don't know when I am going to be sick so have to be home by toilet. What complete disappointment that I won't be able to bury my mother in-law with the rest of the family. It just wasn't ment to be with tears in my eyes. I have so upset because for the past 2 weeks it looked like I was putting my health issues at bay but instead it has come at me full force. I find it interesting the doctor I saw said that my body is just ridding itself of toxins it isn't all bad. I can't live like this getting sick like this just like that. I have never taken ssuch good care of myself as I have the last 6 months and really nothing is making that much of difference after all. I am not in pain, I take that back but I seem to be ill still most of the time. I would like to know why my body feels this need to shut down and poar water out of my body. It isn't right. I am wondering if anyone else has experienced such attacks that have made me more physically ill with each epasode. Why is my body breaking down and excreating toxins like this, there must be a reason. I am very down and upset with myself. I wish there was something I could do to control this and maybe I too could have a bit of a life.