Jan 28, 2002 - 10:22 pm
Hi everyone! Just having some rough days right now and could use some advice from some great women who know just how I feel. As most of you know, I am having my hysterectomy in a week and a half, I'm getting really nervous. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to go through with it. I'm just so tired of everyone poking at me and being in the hospital all the time. Now, I'm not even half done with my Herceptin treatments and I've lost 3% in my heart ejection and have developed mild hypokenesis. My oncologist wants me to continue on the treatments for another 6 weeks and then repeat the MUGA scan again. I'm not to sure about all of this. I'm so scared to quit my treatments. I seem to feel that if I am still taking my treatments and being watched so closely that I am so much more safe from having this cancer come back. If I am all done with my treatments, I have to face my life again and I'm so scared this is going to come back. For those of you who don't know, I was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer last April at the age of 24. My husband ended up leaving me over it and now continuely harasses me and I can't get a restraining order against him until he physically hurts me. It's crap that you have to wait til you get the s**t beat out of you until you get have something done about it. I'm sorry to go on, but I just needed to get some of this off of my chest and all of you here are the only ones who seem to understand. Thank you all so much for being here for me! I really appreciate all you have done for me!