Jun 02, 2001 - 12:11 pm
Thanks everyone for your messages, especially 24242 and susiern. I did join a support group right after surgery and I have been attending the weekly meetings for the last couple of months and really benefiting from them. The other members are various cancer survivors who are mostly in their 30s and 40s, which is nice, because my concerns and issues are so much different from survivors with pretty stable social/emotional/financial lives.
I regret sending that message yesterday; I was lower than I'd felt in a while. I do look forward to little things, and am glad I'm alive today. Several people asked if returning to my hometown would be easier, and quite honestly it would be a different form of isolation for me. Not only would the medical care be much inferior, but I have not lived there in almost ten years for a reason. My dear great-aunt, who raised me, and a couple of other friends are the only touchstones I have there. Maybe down the line, I'll feel like its time to return.
I've been trying to establish a relationship with GOD. I am envious of people so secure in their faith that they never feel alone. But I don't know how to get there. If wishing made it so... Any suggestions on that end would be appreciated.
Anyway... Thanks for all the warm thoughts. You all really helped me out.