May 14, 2014 - 3:00 pm
Hi all I lost my dad to Chronic Lymphotic or Lymphatic (sorry don't know spelling) Lukemia in 2011 and I still miss him terribly and feel stuck sometimes. The struggle with him being ill and the treatments really have gotten to me I am still upset about what he went through and I wasn't able to talk to him much before he died because he was losing his voice. I can't seem to look at his picture without crying and I feel down sometimes because I wonder why I survived my battle cancer and he lost his. We were really close and he'll always mean a lot to me I have accepted that he's gone but I still struggle with my emotions- my grief. I am glad this is a place where we can talk about our loved ones and support one another. For those who have also lost someone to cancer I am here for you and I think that we will always miss those we lose and that things take time when we want to heal. I just can't seem to get there but I'm hopeful.