Feb 13, 2014 - 10:05 am
Hi. I am a cancer survivor - been free for three years now. However, I don't feel free. It's not that I incessantly worry that it will come back, that faded after the first year or so. I still worry off and on, but not so much. What I don't understand is that ever since I got the cancer-free, I've been basically depressed and not living. I know some of it stems from the fact that I lost the ability to ever bear children and since I had no children before then, well, I know some of it has to do with that. I am grateful that I am a survivor, I think, but why won't I live my life? I basically sit around and do nothing all day. What is wrong with me?! Part of me almost feels like I would feel better if I still had cancer. What is up with that? Am I alone in this?