Jan 17, 2014 - 11:08 pm
I have a generalized anxiety disorder and I have always been afraid of doctors. So much so that for all of my adult life I never saw one, about to turn 45 by the way. Recently my girlfriend gave me an ultimatum to get help for my anxiety or we were through. I love this woman with every fiber of my being so fought with myself to get treatment. Slowly I am beginning to overcome my anxiety, so much so that I decided it was time to get a regular physician and see if he could tell me why I was losing so much weight so quickly. He referred me to a GI specialist who got me an abdominal CT scan. Only thing abnormal it showed was a small tumor in a kidney, I don't even know which one, didn't think to ask. Well, he just tells me its a tumor, never uses the C word or M word and refers me to a urologist. The urologist takes a gander at my CT and tells me, "yes, you have a tumor and need a partial nephrectomy." Then he proceeds to schedule me for another CT, of the abdomen and chest as well this time, and also schedules me for upper GI endoscopy and colonoscopy with the GI specialist I saw earlier. Again, no one tells me that I have cancer or a malignant tumor, just a tumor. The CT is next week and I'll probably go through with it. The upper and lower GI tests I will have to cancel as I simply can not afford it at this time. Would take me several months just to save enough to put down on the procedure. Well, anyway I happen to be the curious type and I logged onto my insurance company's webpage and read my personal health record. In it I see the diagnosis by the urologist written as malignant neoplasm - kidney. After freaking out and doing alot of reading about tumors and cancer and kidneys it seems the urologist is just simply assuming I have some form of RCC. Is this normal? Shouldn't I be seeing an oncologist? What's the need of the upper and lower GI tests? I'm sort of freaking out and my anxiety is now at an all time high.