Jan 17, 2014 - 6:26 pm
I can't believe it but I will not be going for any more treatments on Monday, I rang the bell today after my last rad treatment. It was and still is a little surreal, these last few days have been hell - voice gone and starting feeding through tube - my mouth and throat just too sore after the last few days of rads.
Still, I think back to when I first wrote all of you for help, for comfort and some stability to this change in my life - I thank all of you for getting me to this point - you were all so right, it was hard, sometimes really hard, 'BUT DOABLE. Thanks Matt and everyone else, all of you - now I hope and pray to make it over the next few humps, the April scan and the next few years and the next few after that! You are all terrific, just wonderful people.
On a practical level - did any of you put off your fluourine trays a few days after treatment, the mucous is so bad at this point that I simply cannot do them, was wondering if your dentists were okay with a few days to a week break for mouth sores -
Oh well, Osmolite and Gatorade for at least the next two weeks - was drinking the Ensure up to two days ago but too sore to go with it at this point. So the day is spent spaceing out Gatorade and feeding through the tube, not so bad, but the osmolite takes a little time, but then where am I going in the short term anyway.
All the best to all of you, thoughts and prayers and you were all right - keep up the faith and the will to do it. I am trying to refrain from thinking too much about being able to taste again, just a day at a time, but I will risk it for one moment - I hope to taste a hot dog again some day.
Love you all
ps there I go writing again, this is what you have done for me, so much help, so much leaning, thanks