Dec 02, 2013 - 11:05 pm
Hello everyone, This is my first post since joining recently. I never knew anyone with cancer and
had no idea how scarey it is until this past July when my husband was diagnosed with neuroendocrine cancer. It's a rare form of cancer that is treated experimentally. It took a while for the doctors to decide on a form of
"treatment". It's mainly a way to control his symptoms which, thank God, does not include pain so far. I had no idea how freightening it is to hear the words Cancer and Terminal and We just don't know enough about it to treat it. It was discovered it spread to his liver and is stage 4.
I honestly thought that once I told my family we'd have a lot of support. His family is there, but they live far from us, different parts of the country. My family on the other hand live very close to us. Pretty much what it came down to is nobody even asked how we were handling things. Well, it's been so hard on my daughters and me. We have each other to talk to but when we're all going through the same pain you just wish that there would be someone to pick up the phone and ask if there was anything they could do. And all we need is for someone to show that they care, or come by and just talk about anything, even to get your mind off of things. Has anyone found themselves in that position? I find myself getting angry and hurt on top of having to deal with the roller coaster of emotions from just having to deal with the cancer. One day we spent 13 hours out of the house and most of the time we were at the hospital going for his tests and consultations and treatments. 2 hours was spent traveling to and from the hospital. I wished that when I got home someone would have called and told us to not loose heart. I feel like I'm feeling sorry for myself (and my husband and kids) but what do I do with all this emotion? Take a walk? Meditate? Nothing seems to be working. Thank you for listening. And I pray you all have a good week.