Nov 28, 2013 - 3:39 am
I'm 55, female, diagnosed in 2001 with multiple myeloma. I never married and come from a very dysfunctional and unloving family. Lately I've been wanting to stop seeing my oncologist and let nature take its course. I am anemic Again. Much pain.
when diagnosed my sister was very cruel. 2 months ago I had a very serious surgery on my bowel. All my siblings verbally abused me in the hospital. I am much younger than them.
that experience changed me. I love Jesus. I want to be with him and my pets, one of whom died 3 weeks ago from cancer. I love animals and am left with 4 cats who love me.
my therapist said there is a special place in hell waiting for them.
my mother has told them she is leaving me financially secure as they are all rich, and they are trying to undo my trust, put me in public housing. I'm worn out and tired and having to get a lawyer.
i don't even know why I'm writing this. I am also bipolar and have attempted suicide before. Last time I was miraculously found unconscious by a stranger in a deserted place. So I feel Jesus must've stepped in. But I can't find a solution.
Im im very awkward socially and have no friends. I'm not afraid of death, but my cats don't deserve to be abandoned.
i will be so happy in heaven with Jesus and my pets.