Oct 23, 2013 - 10:20 pm
Hi fellow cancer survivors and those in treatment:
I am due for my 3 year checkup (Pet scan) and am getting anxious. You would think this gets easier, and it does, but a week before the check up I am just as nervous. It is this feeling of not knowing and thinking it will be ok but then... constantly questioning. I feel good and don't have many complaints. My main issue is that I am now pre menopausal and don't have my period. I can do everything I did before. I am definetley more tired and sleep more. Of course, before the check up, I have all kinds of sensations and notice this and that. Wish me luck. I am hopeful and look forward to celebrating 3 years out. A big milestone... but I am not there yet. I am anxious. I tell my husband and he says you will be fine. Of course what I want to hear.
Life is beautiful. But, what has changed forever is that, once confronted with the possibility of death, it will forever remain in your head and heart. It is strange how I feel at times that I am so lucky to be here. There is more of an appreciation of life having been exposed to the possibility and the fragility of it. I don't think anybody can really understand this until you are faced with it.
I wonder how Martha feels about checkups... is this getting any easier of time?