Oct 01, 2013 - 2:22 pm
I don't even know where to start. I am 44, and I have never smoked or drank alcohol, I am not overweight, and I am fairly active. I have a fantastic wife...we have been married 15 years....and we have the most amazing 5 year old son. My wife and my son are my whole world.
I had to go to the emergency room about a week ago with kidney stones. They did a CT scan without contrast and they found the stone stuck in the ureter; then the CT report notes this:
"In addition, there is 2.8 cm area of decreased attenuation in the posterior cortex of the right kidney. This likely represents a cyst although its margins do not appear quite smooth and regular, and further evaluation by contrast CT or ultrasound is recommended to ensure the absence of a mass".
Later on in the report it refers to it again, saying: "There is an area of decreased attenuation in the right kidney which may represent a cyst but its appearance is slightly irregular and further evaluation by contrast CT or ultrasound is recommended to assure the absence of a mass".
Then at the end it says "There is an approximate 2.8 cm area of decreased density in the right mid renal cortex of uncertain etiology. This may represent a cyst with slight irregular margins, regard is some concern followup contrasted CT or ultrasound is recommended".
What does this mean? My urologist who performed my kidney stone procedure told me he thinks it is benign; then later after the kidney stone surgery while I was still "out", my wife asked him point blank if he thought is was cancer and he said "No, I don't think it is cancer". He also told me there was hurry and getting the follow-up CT, that we would do that later. But I went ahead asked him if we could go ahead and get it over with; so I am having it this Friday.
I am so incredibly scared and my wife wonderful and trying to stay positive until we see the results....but I have a terrible feeling that the results are either going to plainly say it is cancer; or be very suggestive that is cancer.
Will I die from this?
I can't bear the thought of my son growing up without me; he needs and deserves his dad to be there for baseball, college, and all the other times a boy needs their dad.