Sep 13, 2013 - 12:13 pm
Hi, my Dad was diagonsed with a brain tumor Spring 2012. He had surgery, radiation and chemo therpay. He was clear for a couple months until the tumor was back and had spread to other parts of his brain. He is currently on some other kind of treatment.
I don't know too much, because I find it hard to talk about and I don't communicate with my parents the way I think I should. I actually find it extremely hard to talk to my dad at all, even about normal everyday things. Whenever I see him, I just can't think about anything except that he is dying. When I do talk to him, I tend to snap and angrily walk away. I know this bad and extremely unfair to him.
I'm not sure why I'm behaving so immaturely. Lately, I've been crying a lot about it and have bad dreams, but I don't talk to my famiily about the situation. I try to pretend it's not happening and actually refuse to discuss it when others bring it up. I tell myself I'm being strong for my mother and younger brother, but I know I'm just not handling the situation well. I know I'm not being a good daughter, but I'm scared and I don't know how to deal. I'm just wondering if anyone went through this or if they could help me handle this better, so I can be there for my dad because that's the most important thing to me. I want my dad to know I'm there for him. I know I sound selfish and immature, and that's why I'm looking for advice. Thanks.