Aug 14, 2013 - 8:58 am
Today is the day for my ct scan. I have had so many ct scans and other scans over the years. I can do this alone.
Tomorrow, I will go to Medical Records to pick up the result of my scan. I have gone to this place for over 10 years and know the ladies in this department and they know me. The area once was my children's pediatricians offices.
I always call first to make certain that the radiologist has read it and dictacted his findings. That the transcriber has done her job and the results are in Medical Records. One of the ladies will hand me the envelope with the results inside. I leave and go to my car. I never read the results in front of them.
It is there that I would like to feel the present of the Pink Bus ladies.
The scan is of my lungs and pleura along with those ribs, to see if Taxol is working. I am wheezing again, have shortness of breath and sometimes cough. I am not expecting a good scan. However, I had started a news pill back in July. Wheezing was listed as side effect. I am hoping for a miracle that the pill Provigil is the culprit which I stop using last week. Otherwise if the tumors are growing or an effusion is present, I will have to go on to some other drug. The devil I know is better than the one I don't.
This is the first time, I have asked for the Pink Bus. I would like this csn ladies and gentlemen to be present, as for the first time, I feel panicky. I have had good and bad reports in the pasts. I feel very vunerable and it has a lot to do with my mother who was my best cheerleader over the years (19 years as of Friday, the 16th when I was diagnosed with breast cancer). My mother has ALzheimer's and had a major stoke in July. She is under hospice care presently.
Will you please join me as I open the envelope with the results? Praying or sending Postive thoughts, will be appreciated.
Best to all,