Aug 03, 2013 - 12:26 am
My reconstruction surgery has been scheduled for August 8th. My doctor is taking the tissue expanders out, and putting the implants in. The expanders were not fun at all, but at least that part is over soon.
I haven't had a panic attack in a long time. However, yesterday, after reading over the risks of leakage from the implants and the monitering that will be done, I began to feel the stress of this whole journey again. Today, it all came to a head, and I had a really bad panic attack. It took me by surprise because this is going to be my 5th surgery in just a year and a half. I should be used to this by now, right? Do the questions and the wonders of "is it going to come back" or "am I doing the right thing" ever stop?