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Jobi
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Hi ladies,

My reconstruction surgery has been scheduled for August 8th.  My doctor is taking the tissue expanders out, and putting the implants in.  The expanders were not fun at all, but at least that part is over soon. 

I haven't had a panic attack in a long time. However, yesterday, after reading over the risks of leakage from the implants and the monitering that will be done, I began to feel the stress of this whole journey again.  Today, it all came to a head, and I had a really bad panic attack.  It took me by surprise because this is going to be my 5th surgery in just a year and a half.  I should be used to this by now, right? Do the questions and the wonders of "is it going to come back" or "am I doing the right thing" ever stop?

 

Dorene

 

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VickiSam
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Push forward ..  myself, I had 8 surgeries in 13 months --  Bilateral Sister in PINK here ...  I also suffer from Panic/Anxiety disorder and have for 20 plus years.  If need be, speak to your primary doctor and get xanax to help you thru.

I often described my panic as ready to give up, or give into the fear.  Its like pushing a car up hill  -- hard, tuff and often frustrating.  If I look around, I soon realize that I can .. give up - however, I have to remind myself to look at the bigger picture - life and freedom from panic.

You've thru a lot, give yourself to grieve .. knowing that there is something better waiting for you at the end of this journey.

Strength, Courage and HOPE for a Cure.

Vicki Sam

 

 

 

 

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My prayers are with you, Sweet Sister.  I have had more than a few periods when I wondered if I could make it and I'm not even as far along as you are.  I'm will soon be having my last chemo and then will start the dbl mastectomy and reconstruction process.

I know none of this is fun and certainly not easy, but know that all this will one day be over and all your suffering will be worth it.  If the "what if's" start to get you down, watch or read a good comedy.  Do whatever it takes to get your mind elsewhere.  Just as our bodies wear down from all the treatments, so does our minds.  Give it a little vacation from reality.

I hope this helps a bit.  At least this and prayer are what gets me to the next appt,  test, tx or surgery.

Love and hugs.  Know you are in my prayers.  You CAN do this, you are a strong women!

God bless,

Sandy

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Jobi
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Your post does help.  Congrats on your upcoming last chemo.  When I finished mine, I had a post-chemo party and celebrate the day with an annual trip!

You are in my prayers as well. 

 

Dorene

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Jobi
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Thanks Vicki Sam!  I took your advice about lessening the amount of fluid I received in the expanders.  I will talk to my doctor this week.

 

Thank you.

June Bugs
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I have never had one, but, I know some that have and they describe how scary they are.  I will be praying for you!

Hugs, June

taylor manny
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Dorene, I think a panic attack can hit anyone at anytime.  Sometimes our minds and bodies just have enough and can't handle anymore and this can happen.  I hope you're feeling better now and let your doctor know about this.

 

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Having had complications, tram on left implant on right...20 surgeries in 4 yrs.

As far as panic attacks are concerned, though I don't get them as a rule, only a few times, I drew on previous experience and got back into meditation.  Better than drugs for me as I take meds for different things.  Also I can do it anywhere any time.  Not a deep session, just enough to mellow and re-center my body and mind. it helped me through a lot of this whole thing.  Though the learning process isn't simple, I am forever grateful I had learned it long ago.

 

All things change, nothing stays the same (per my mom, sorely missed)

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I have the lowest possible dose of xanax - I normally take 1/2 a pill as needed.  There are times when I take a 1/2 pill once every 3 or 4 months - depending on my anxiety levels -

 

I will be thinking, and praying for you on the 8th. 

 

Gentle hugs,  xoxoxoxoxo

Vicki Sam

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Jobi
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Thanks Vicki Sam,

I have had a few more since the last time I was on this site.  They haven't been as bad as the original one, but they are still a pain.  I was trying to wait to see my doctor to get the script. But I am just going to call today.

 

2 more days to surgery.

 

Dorene

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I have to agree with the Xanax, talk to your docotr about it.  I only need to take it on occasion but just knowing I have it in my procketbook for emergencies seems to help me a lot.  Even a small does can stop a panic attack quickly.

As to why you're having them, I think it's almost to be expected when going through cancer treatments and reconstruction.  Don't underestimate what this whole picture does to your psyche!

Hope you find relief soon and your next procedure goes smoothly!

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Jobi
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Thank you Susan.  I really appreciate your insight. Thanks for letting me know this is expected.

Dorene

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I hope that by now Dorene that you've talked to your doctor and have gotten a prescription for an anxiety or nerve pill.  I think we all need help from time to time and it seems you do now. 

Good luck,

Megan

disneyfan2008
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no advice..just want to let you know thinking of you..

Denise

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Thinking about you ..  hoping your anxiety and panic have subsided.

Gentle hugs dear Sister in Pink ..

Vicki Sam

Kobias
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Hoping you find something to help you with these attacks.  I am so sorry that you ever had one.

Kathy

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Thinking about you ..  hoping your anxiety and panic have subsided.

Gentle hugs dear Sister in Pink ..

Vicki Sam

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Thinking about you ..  hoping your anxiety and panic have subsided.

Gentle hugs dear Sister in Pink ..

Vicki Sam

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Jobi
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Thanks Vicki Sam.  I have had fewer, but they are not gone.  Since I now have more surgery in my future due to my still very uneven and flattened right breast after reconstruction, I am still feeling the stress and anxiety attacks.  Hoping it will calm down soon.  Some days I have a good outlook and others... bleh.  Today I had to go to the post-mastectomy bra store.  Finding a bra for a person with a D cup size on the left (which shocked me) and a small B on the right was challenging to say the least (and expensive).  I though my insurance would cover it, but since I haven't met my deductible for the year which just began for my insurance, I had to write a $220 check for 4 bras!  Sorry to vent and whine but, uh...looking for a break!

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Jobi
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Thanks Vicki Sam.  I have had fewer, but they are not gone.  Since I now have more surgery in my future due to my still very uneven and flattened right breast after reconstruction, I am still feeling the stress and anxiety attacks.  Hoping it will calm down soon.  Some days I have a good outlook and others... bleh.  Today I had to go to the post-mastectomy bra store.  Finding a bra for a person with a D cup size on the left (which shocked me) and a small B on the right was challenging to say the least (and expensive).  I though my insurance would cover it, but since I haven't met my deductible for the year which just began for my insurance, I had to write a $220 check for 4 bras!  Sorry to vent and whine but, uh...looking for a break!

JJDS
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Good to know they are fewer Dorene and I hope eventually, they are gone forever! 

Hugs, JJ

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I started getting them about a year b4 mets. Way to much stress, then had one on takeoff in plane... Thankfully, I knew what it was. Took a Zanex and calmed down... actually slept on the way home. They started with 2 cancer scares and really kicked in with the mets, now when I feel one starting, I am usually able to talk mysef down! It really helps. Havent had a Zanex in a couple of years.
Hope they continue to get fewer as your stress subsides. Another thing that truly helped was meditation classes through our Cancer Wellness Center! The issues didnt go away or get better, I got help in learning different techniques to recognize and get through them, now I no longer get them.

Hgs,
Carol
Wish you the best, you have been through so much!

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Jobi
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Thanks Carol!  I appreciate the advice.  I will check out the meditation. 

 

Dorene

Candi Cane
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I hope you get a resolution to this as it must be awful.

Good luck,

Candi

bluewillo
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I'm sorry you have to go thru that. I asked my GP about the difference between panic attacks and anxiety attacks (work has become unbearably stressful lately).

He said panic attacks make you go to the hospital because you think you're having a heart attack. So, I'm having anxiety attacks. I truly hope you get some relief!

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