Jul 18, 2013 - 8:24 am
Good morning to all, I'm sorry so many of you have to deal with this desease. I've been here once earlier this year. My wife has Stage IV colorectal cancer. It was diagnosed as Stage IIa in September 2009. We had two years to think the monster was behind us. She went through the ileostomy and all the related surgeries. On January 2012, 5 nodules were discovered on her lungs. Well, she had surgery at Sloan Kettering on June, 2012 and those nodules were resected with a thoracic surgery. Again, a few months of clear scans. I'm sorry, a few months of scans where there appear to be things, but it was inconclusive. Well, the CAT scan last week confirmed three more nodules. My wife will be treateds with stereotactic surgery for 2 of the 3 nodules. The last one is small at 5mm. The doctor explained that it had minimal apparent growth from 4mm to 5mm since the last scan. He said that it could be something, but then it may be nothing. We are working on getting the procedure done for the two larger ones (9mm and 15mm). He said that we could revisit the other one after another CAT scan.
I don't know how much time I have left with my wife. We have two girls ages 13 and 11. Lately, our relationship has taken some shots because of the stress of the desease, kids and arguments about home improvements needed for the home. The kids are entering ages that may cause us more stress. Believe me, I feel very guilty about those arguments. My question to some of you is: if you have a similar history of the desease, how long have you been fighting?
On the visit to the radiation oncologist. We made a comment to the effect of, "Sir, we are glad you can treat these nodules. Question, let's say a year from now new one(s) pop up, can we do another set of sessions?" His comment was very clinical. More or less he said, "well, we can't keep cherry picking these things. At one time, this methold would need to be stopped." The comment hit me hard. My wife is horrified of going back to chemo, which would be the next step. I don't know, if she would go through that again. She has made comments about the quality of life. She is 50 years old and truthfully, aside from some residual foot issues due to the Oxy chemo, she looks ok. It makes me sick that this thing is inside of her and there is so little one can do. The feeling of helplessness is incredible.
I would truly appreciate any input on my question, how long have you been fighting this monster?
thank you, MYD