Jul 03, 2013 - 4:15 pm
The last few days have been hectic to say the least both physically and mentally. Mike's breathing has not improved since going on the Prednisone so we started morphine. The side effects of the Prednisone were horrible to the point Mike's entire peronality changed, he was having horrible dreams, kept repeating himself and major insomnia. So far the morphine is helping Mike relax enough to ease the breathing so this is the most positive thing to happen in over 4 months. Tomorrow we get hospice into place so we all can focus on Mike's quality of life instead of quantity. Though is is a difficult choice to make to say no more chemo, the truth is that the treatment is worse than the cancer and the emphysema combined and Mike just does not have the strength at 111 pounds to fight the horrible side effects of the chemo. We now turn our attention to Mike and making the time we have left as comfortable as possible without being poked, proded and filled with chemicals that are killing him. We are so thankful for our Oncologist who has supported us every step of the way and our decision to stop chemo. We truly have been blessed with an AMAZING medical team who gave us their all and then some, but it is also time to be realistic and realize this beast is too big for us but it while it may be too big, it will not rob the man I love of his dignity to live the rest of his days with us his way!! My husband is truly my hero!