Jun 05, 2013 - 12:27 am
Hi. My name is Carolyn and the last 5 days have made me search for info on kidney cancer. I went to the doctor last Thursday for left sided pain that wouldn't go away. I didn't know if it was colon pain or kidney pain. I have had left kidney stones and UTI's in the past. The doctor sent me for an ultrasound the next day. About 15 minutes after I got home from that the doctor called. Never have I had that happen after a test before. I knew something was up. Turns out the US showed a 2.5 cm complex mass with thick septation. Radiologist recommended CT with and without contrast for further assessment. This morning I had the CT done. Again, about an hour after I got home the doctor called. The CT showed a solid mass which was concerning. I don't have a copy of that report yet, just what the dr. said. I am scheduled to see a urologist who specializes in kidney cancer on Monday.
I've done some research and am adjusting to the fact that I probably have RCC and will need at least a partial nephrectomy. I guess I feel that until I know for sure, what can I do. You know the Serenity Prayer, "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference." If I do have cancer, I know I can't change it. I have to accept it and deal with it.
What scares me most is that I have a wonderful 16-year-old girl that doesn't know any of this yet. She knows I have to see a urologist, but I was in the hospital a few years ago with a bad kidney infection and stone which required a stent and later lithotripsy. She just figures more of the same, I guess. My husband is being supportive, but doesn't really know much about how to handle what is going on. As I was a medical assistant years ago, I am familiar with the practice of medicine and have always had to deal with medical issues on my own.
I found this forum and am so glad. I also suffer from depression and have a short attention span, but I have read a few posts and it seems like this is a great place to get and give support. What is everyone's opinion on my test results? I'm not totally freaking out yet, but am very concerned I will lose it if I am diagnosed with cancer. I'm thinking since it is small it could possibly be removed totally with surgery. Then I read a post that even though it is small, it could still have invaded the veins, which makes it a worse diagnosis. I feel good that it can be totally removed, but if it does metasisize, radiation and chemo won't help. Then I come to this site and apparently there are some targeted drugs that can help.
I guess I'm just confused and anxious to find out what I am dealing with. Like I read, waiting is the worse part. Anyway, I just wanted to say hey and tell you my story as I really don't have anyone else to talk to that has had to deal with something like this.