Apr 27, 2013 - 4:47 am
I think the reality of my hubby's situation has just hit me real hard tonight. He sleeps fitfully as I sit by his bedside, mostly mumbling parts of drugged dreams. He can't sit up to urinate, so I hold the urinal for him as he lays. When awake, he is coherent. He sees what the near future holds. Social Services called today to say that PT is recommending an Extended Stay facility upon discharge. She's given me a list of nearbys to check out. I had to be honest & tell her that although I want him home, I can't get him up. It appears he'll need intense PT if he's to walk again. All this and then the ever growing cancer is just too much. He's in no shape for another chemo. I'm just afraid time is running out. His cardio was in tonight, but he's always been a man of few words, sort of aloof. I would cry, but no one would hear. Like our poor Vivian, I am alone with my thoughts.
Thanks for listening,