Remeron and Help!!! I need reassurrance!!

Just wrote a long long missive a few hours ago, and it never appeared....quite frustrating!...here I go again

 

2 things:

 

1    anyone with any experience on Remeron? Does the fatigue go away?

just came back from psychiatrist with this prescription

 

1     The psychiatrist was very nice, but somewhere in our conversation  the words "end of life" came out of her mouth....I dont know in what context..she was looking at my chart

 

A few weeks ago, when I was between chemos, I felt almost normal.....just some lingering fatigue, which is normal post chemo.....I was swimming, travelled to Montreal to my father's funeral, absolutely no cancer symptoms...also my blood count is normal   my hemoglobin is 127....no "anemia of chronic disease"....

Does this sound like "end of life" to you?

Those words coupled with my depression resulted in my return home with hysterical crying....dont want to talk to anyone about it except you ladies

 

I need to get back on track with positive thinking

 

any time I have an MD appointment at Princess Margaret Hosp....since  the beginning of this wonderful "journey", I come back infused with negativity and anxiety

 

I am looking to you ladies for hope and help and positivity

I love the idea of cancer being viewed as a "chronic disease" that can be managed

If one thing doesnt work, there must be something that does

Tomorrow is weekly Taxol #5

Monday I have an appointment with my oncologist and I am terrified she will say "it is not working...go straight to Palliative"

 

What about something else, like GEMZAR?

I wish I had more energy... to go to Sloan Kettering..though this is a possibility

 

Would love to hear from you ladies

I feel fine except for fatigue

Please tell me this is not "end of life", and if this weekly Taxol is not working, there are still other options

 

love and knishes,

Beila