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Chelsea71
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Well, I think this quiet spell has gone on long enough. You mentioned to us that you may take a break. We explained to you that we would not allow it. Others can take breaks when required, but not you. You have responsibilities here. You are the glue that holds us all together. We warned you that action will be taken. We will come and get you. Not too sure what we will do with you once we find you. It may not be pretty. Guess we will figure it out once we've tracked you down. You better warn your wife. A bunch of crazy women are coming after you. Enough is enough!

jen2012
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Got the toddler strapped to my hip...im ready Chels!

Chelsea71
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Good work Jen. I'm pretty sure I can talk Cynthia into taking a road trip. I hear Texas is very nice this time of year. Pack your bags, Cynthia. Anyone else interested?

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LivinginNH
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I've got my cowgirl hat ready!!  Lets saddle up!!  Yeehaa!!!

jen2012
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Whoa!  Look at that horse!    Ok, a Canadian and two New Englanders pretending to be cowgirls....not gonna be pretty.   Craig you better come back and save us some serious embarrassment.

Chelsea71
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Do you see how serious we are, Craig? Cynthia has purchased a horse! Get ready. Company's a coming.

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annalexandria
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even though I live in the city, and the last time I rode I horse I fell off and got trampled (to be fair, I was 6).  You better check in, Craig, if you don't want to be responsible for me ending up in the ER with a hoofprint on my face.  AA

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wolfen
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Now you've got the Texas born, old Arizona cowgirl on your team. I've got 9 pairs of boots. When do I start kickin'?

Seriously, maybe he's taking a little break. I told him the "Storm Of The Century" was over and it was safe to get back in the water.  LOL

Luv,

Wolfen

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AnnLouise
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sounds fun....this Chicago girl is ready!  ~ Ann

Chelsea71
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This a a pretty powerful group you've got coming after you. You could end this now by just checking in to let us know all is well. For now, we will settle for some type of a signal. We will let you ease back in slowly. Otherwise, Wolfen will track you down first, seeing as she is the closest. She will hogtie you until the rest of us arrive.

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Sundanceh
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Hi!!

Someone told me my Bat Phone was ringing...and that I needed to answer that call:)

Next time I'm looking for a security entourage...I know just who to call:)   And it ain't Ghostbusters:)

Thank you gals...this was most sweet of all of you...you're right Chels...this is a pretty powerful selection of lady warriors alright and with the new horse, The Posse has formed...Texas is big though...but if you gals ever did catch up to me...we would be like this great big old sandwich....with me in the middle...and all of you surrounding me.  I'd probably give up without a fight:)

Ann coming from Seattle...Jen and Cyn coming from NE...Wolfen covering the backroads from AZ to TX...and now your enlisting new recruits:)

I finally got a few days off from work...I had alot of business to handle for dad...and us too...this estate stuff really turned things topsy turvy...everything is so legal and you spend alot of time chasing the info etc. etc.

I've looked around and seen how far our train has come off the tracks the past couple of years...I knew...or thought I knew....and then I didn't know what I thought I knew...and from what I know now...I don't think I ever really truly know now...what I thought I knew then. 

So much rides on the surface...so much so that we never look underneath to see what the real story is....maybe it all comes down to seeing what we allow ourself to see...for fear of seeing too much more will be too unsettling...nature seems to have a way to open our eyes at the time that our minds allow us the vision to see what it is that we need to see now...that we couldn't see then. 

Some kind of weird Check and Balance scenario...

Safe to say, I see all areas that we need to work on...it's not easy putting Humpty Dumpty back together again:)

I was just out of pocket taking care of business the past week or so.....I wasn't taking a break or anything...we're working so hard...and getting things done...but the hill climb to the top is so massive, it feels like you're spinning your wheels...even when you're kicking ass:)

That's how you know how far you fell...

I'm working on it though:)

I wanted to thank you all for being so concerned about me...if you still want to come, you can park Cyn's new horse out by my barn...it doubles as a stable, LOL!

And JEN...I got some news for you tomorrow...but now I'd better saddle up and hit the trail:)

Love you guys!!!

P.S.  When the first one of you arrives, can you make me something to eat?

Cool

Chelsea71
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Yaaay! Happy to hear you weren't taking a break.

Sorry your days off from work weren't more enjoyable. Estate matters can be so complicated. Steves mom died in 2002. She onwed several apartment buildings that we eventuallyndecided to sell. Took years to get whole estate settled. So many unexpected problems developed. It was a vey stressful time. (Although nothing like what you've described in posts). Hope you can soon close the chapter.

Well, I guess we don't need need to travel to Texas, after all. Cyn can sell the horse. Something tells me you wouldn't have kicked up too much of a fuss if a bunch of gals showed up at your doorstep. You probably would have enjoyed the hogtying part too! Glad all is well.

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Sundanceh
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How's my Gal Pal?

Just when I thought I was out - they pull me back in...

~Michael Corleone (Godfather III)

 Tongue Out

I had much different plans for those days too...I finally had to secure a CPA to look over dad's tax situation and ours now - as a result of some blunders that the bank made during the funeral expenses that have caused tax implications from the way they handled it.  We sure walked into a different life last year that's for sure.  And we've been manning the mop bucket ever since. 

It's funny, Chels...I was thinking the other day how about a year ago where we were at...running dad to every ICU and ER in town and back again:(  

I saw a commercial advertising The Masters golf tournament...and it triggered those memories and the hospital parts came rushing back...

It will end soon...almost 16-months now...but we are finally closing in now...."closing the chapter" as you said...can't wait to move forward:)

Not coming?

I even left the light on for you, darlin:) 

Well, you've got your hands pretty full north of the border...but I tell you what, you got those gals organized quickly...you're some kind of spitfire:) 

If you had caught up to me, I would have let all of you gals pass me around like a used hat:)

 

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devotion10
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(ok, I am in the north now) but growing up I learned how to ride and rope so be careful about straying too far. -- Cynthia

 

A part of kindness consists in loving people more than they deserve.

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wolfen
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For some reason, that phrase used to crack me up in the ol' corporate wordl, like I fell off the train or something.  LOL

Anyway, my friend, you just keep climbing that hill and we'll all be right behind you pushing. YOU WILL REACH THE TOP!

And give us a shout along the way.

Luv,

Wolfen

jen2012
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The suspense! Can i assume this is magazine article related? Hope to hear some good news.

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Sundanceh
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You are good! :)

When I got back into work and was going through my email, I saw one that caught my eye...

It was from an editor at Coping Magazine...

Hi Craig

I apologize for my late reply. We would be happy to take a look at your story. We generally don't do series, and 2000 words is quite long for our magazine, but definitely send it on over. I can't guarantee publication, but we're always looking for survivor stories, and we appreciate you thinking of us. 

Best,
Jessica Webb Errickson
Editor Coping magazine
I had re-written the story twice and could not come close to the 700-word count limit.  I decided to ask them anyway if they would consider doing a series or something and if I sent them something, would they consider my work? 
 
A month went by...
 
Website had stated if you do not hear back from them...they (ain't) interested...I thought that's what happened.
 
Until yesterday, when I opened up this reply. 
 
So, I re-wrote the story a 3rd time...and it's still way over the limit....but I SENT it in to her anyway.  She's probably hit the Delete key by now, eh?
 
Here's what I wanted to tell you...
 
First, I just have to say Thank You!!!
 
Thank you for being you...thank you for taking the time out of your hectic schedule with all you've got going to think about me and then try and help me! 
 
I talk about Paying It Forward all the time...I talk about using cancer to give to others...I talk about thinking beyond yourself and directing those thoughts to another...
 
Well, Honey Baby...you aren't just talking about it...you're really doing it!!!
 
It just makes me feel so warm...and so proud of you...
 
I can't tell you how hard it is trying to sell yourself to any publishing editor...you can barely beg them to reject you outright...most of the time rejection comes in the form of Silence. So, just to hear from an editor is great!  To be asked to go ahead and send something in even though you have exceeded their length requirements three-fold is incredible!!
 
To be honest with you, I don't know if anything will happen from this.  I would imagine I'm 'too strong' for them...and too wordy:)
 
But, I got the chance to present some of my work to a real live editor of a publishing outfit...and that means that someone in authority got to read my work and perhaps give me some kind of opportunity to print some of my material.
 
Our victory lies there, Jen...
 
This is a good magazine and seems highly credible.  I know most of their stories are those of the 'feel-good' type.  They don't leave you alot of wiggle room...I may be a little too real for them...but I did explain that to her...that I was a 9-year guy and my perspectives differed from someone just starting out or in their first year or two. 
 
Depending on what she tells me, I even have a fall-back plan...I've got the Big Billy story that I think I could edit and present that...and I could try writing something about me and my cancer that I might could pare down to 700...I don't think that story would have any real conviction though.
 
Here's how it would go...
 
I'm Craig / I got cancer 9-years ago / It was hard / I got well.
I got cancer again / It was harder / I got well.
I got cancer the 3rd time / It was the hardest / I got well. 
 
Doesn't read too well, does it, Jen?  But I made the word count, LOL! LOL!
 
But even that took up 36 words out of 700!  Yikes!  See where I'm going? 
 
I just wanted you to know that you are special and that you have made a real difference in my life - by your caring - by your attitude!  I mean, we got this far didn't we?  That's as far as I've gotten in nearly two years of trying other avenues.  WE weren't this far along a month ago, were we?  It was just a concept then...
 
You've helped to play a role in my story...who knows maybe we get our first scalp with Coping...a writer needs to be published.
 
I get somewhat discouraged though honestly, Jen.  I figure if a cancer outfit that thrives on cancer survivor stories doesn't want me - then really, who would?
 
You know what I'm saying?
 
Our people are out there reading that magazine...and I think what I have said about cancer could definitely play to that audience...I know it could be of benefit to them in the same way that it is to some here. 
 
I've prayed on it and asked Him for direction in whatever way that He decides it should go. 
 
We won't stop - we will keep trying! 
 
One way or the other - no matter which way it goes...you stood up and took your shot against cancer...and by doing that, you scored a win for the whole team, Jen! You empowered yourself and you stood up to your adversary and you took affirmative action against said opponent.
 
I'm so proud of you for trying!
 
I see the Personal Growth sprouting within you now...I see you moving away from victim...and more towards protagnoist.  That's what Cancer teaches us to do! 
 
Just know that your actions did not go unnoticed by me:)
 
We'll either hear from her - or not. 
 
Still, it was a good day in the CSN neighborhood.  This is just the right kind of fiber we need here in this room to bind us all together!
 
 
P.S. I still have this image of you with your kiddo tied to your waist...only it changed with this post that Chels started...
 
Somehow, I see all of you ladies "Deputized" as the new Young Guns (honey-pie style)...you've got your hat on and your badge...and your leather chaps on, LOL!  All of you riding hell-bent for leather with your hair blowin' in the breeze. 
 
It's got the makin's of a TV movie...or maybe another book, LOL!
 
Love U!
-Craig
jen2012
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You have a great big heart Craig!  Thank you for you kind words.

As to the magazine - I hope they come through.  So...my husband is a talker and has been involved in many volunteer positions, some of which have meant that he has to give a speech.   I'm his editor :)   I look over what he's written and chop away until it's to a point that he can get across what he is trying to say without taking a lot of time.  I'd be happy to try to edit for you if you'd like and if it wouldn't offend you.  Would love to see you published!   I understand what you probably feel about the rejection of being turned down, but that certainly doesn't mean you aren't a good writer - you just aren't writing what they are looking for at the moment.  I think I mentioned before that my kids schools had authors visit every year and it was a common theme - how long it took to get published. Just gotta get that first piece published then you will have a following.  If you don't hear back from this one - keep trying. We know you wont give up!

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annalexandria
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All I can say is...what do you feel like eating?  I'm thinking between all of us we could whip up something good.  Hugs~AA

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Sundanceh
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Nothing Says Lovin' - Until It Comes From Your Oven...

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smokeyjoe
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SHEESH Craig ..... me and my Billy were gonna have to join this group and come down too....I'd have piggy back my  old 33 year old horse down to Texas though..... do you have mud down there??  She's white and loves to get real dirty......

 

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Sundanceh
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Anytime it rains, I got "lots" of mud...Harley wore out grass down to dirt the last couple of years. 

I'm gonna' have to rename Harley and start calling him Mud Bud:)  He was all in it this week...looked like he was wearing Earth Tone shoes:)

So, Billy would fit right in...I'd love to see Harley's reaction to something that is bigger than he is...LOL!

You and Chels should have come...Chels was right about the weather in Texas right now...the time is now...for about the next 6-8 weeks...and then it will be to calliente down here:)

Imagine that...2 Canada gals crossing the northern border to head as far down South as possible into the continental U.S.:)

Cool pic - now I can pick you out of a lineup, LOL! LOL!

It is nice to see you though!

Chelsea71
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Ha Ha! Hi Leena. I'm picturing you and I crossing the border on your horse. Can you imagine the questions we'd get from the border guards. Would have been quite a journey!

Chelsea

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