Mar 08, 2013 - 12:05 pm
First of all I am sorry about the loss of Buzz. I didn't know him that well like many of you but it was heartbreaking for me to see the picture of his family and imagining all of the heartache they are going through. I understand as a survivor of great loss. My first wife died 14 years ago and my mother died less than 2 weeks after I was diagnosed with cancer. Ther is a guy that I work with whose mother battled breast cancer and then pancreatic cancer. Apparently she just passed away as well. I found out because half of the close knit of group of mangers I am a part of all left early today for the coworders mother funeral. I am sure they didn't tell me because of my situation. So I know it was with good intentions however I SHOULD have been at the funeral.
I mean REALLY? Do they really think I can't handle it. Yeah it would be harder on me than someone not dealing with cancer but I can handle having my abdomin cut wide open several times and over 30 rounds of having poison pumped into me and thinking about death everyday. I think I should be given credit as we all should for being incredibly tuff and resiliant people.
Then I have the added pressure of not mentioning all of the bad news to my wife because she expects me to outlive her which I plan to do as well and I adore her but because of that in times like these you are the only people I can turn to.
I love the fact that we can come here and let it all hang out.
Thanks for listening