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I can actually think of several things I would like to change about myself, so, how about you?

If you could, what would you change about yourself?

And, you don't need to just post one. 

 

Thanks!

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that I didn't acquire such a desire for chocolate lately!  LOL 

A great post again Susie and love the pic!Laughing

 

Sue :)

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Now why is that bad Ritzy?  Chocolate is good for you, or, in my opinion..it is! 

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my hubby bought a bunch of those chocolate mint cookies from the Girl Scouts and I just keep eating them.  LOL  I even had him order some more and I froze them. 

Do you think I have an addiction?  Yikes!

 

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Ritzy, Danny and his best friend both each buy a case of the thin mints every year and put them in the freezer.  They then have a "contest" to see who can make their cookies last the longest.  Lol, they both go through their cookies pretty quickly.  Those cookies are his Achille's heel!

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I think they are becoming my Achille's heel too CC!  Darn cookies!  Why do they have to be so good?

Ummm, if I run out, I know where to go now to get some more.!  LOL

Tell Danny and his best friend that they have good taste, in women, a compliment to you :),  and cookies!

Sue :)

 

p.s. Now where do you live?  LOL

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For one, I would try to give back more.  One of the nurses at the cancer center is always trying to get me to be one of the leaders in the bc support group there, but, I just don't know if I would be any good or if I really want to even try it.  I do take water, snacks and new puzzles for the cancer center, but, that's as far as I've gotten so far to actually helping. 

I can actually say that there are days that I don't even think of bc and I love that.  It didn't happen over night, but, it did happen for me.

Just fearful that if I get involved in something like the support group that I will bring it all home with me and I really don't want that.

Maybe in time I will, we will see.

Jan

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Jan,

No matter how much or little time you can offer to help other is the greatest reward to all.

We donate our time to the Candlelighters with our horses at halloween time, P.A.L (Police Athletic League) and Catholic Charities.  We can only afford X amount of time because of work but now with me having BC has made me think of other things we can do with the horses to help others heal or just bring a smile and make a memory.

 

The thing I would change about myself is the fact that I never had time to enjoy doing things with my kids like my mother did with me.  Every weekend we would be at a horse show or auction (highend)

I plan to take my daughter to a few horse shows and let her experience FUN, competition and team spirit between her and her horse.

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Dear Jan,

Your on this discussion board, so you do think of cancer every time you log on.  

Do you ever answer some other ladies question on here?  How would it be different in real life?

I was asked once also and at the time was 3 years out.  I had been attending a support group and became a good friend of the lady who lead the group.  She was becoming tired of the commitment and wanted someone else to take over.  We often took turns if of leading the group when she was on vacation, sick and etc.  I regret not trying but I also didn't want to become to involved in something I was going to try to forget.  Cancer in my case didn't let me forget.

Give it a try and if it is to much, you can always withdraw.

Wishing you the best in a decision,

Doris

PS Your doing great giving water, snacks and puzzles.  I did hear the lady who lead me around the center I won't be going except for once (tomorrow) that they do feed those who are there during lunch time.  When I went the first time, I had the last appointment of the day in order not to miss much work, so it was always way after lunch.

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I love those too Sue and the peanut butter ones!  I think I need some right now!  hehe

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LOL Ritzy!   I love those GS mint cookies too.  Do you know that you can buy the same thing at the grocery store?  Or, I think they taste the same.  I think the brand is Keebler.  It's been awhile since I've bought them, but, they really do taste the same.  Have you tried those?  ( just incase you run out of the girl scout ones LOL )

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I would like to have been a scientist.

The one that discovers the cure for cancer.

Hugs

Donna

PS. I would also have loved to have been a skinny vamp.

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Organized!  I wish I could be more organized!  You ought to see my office!  Holy Moly!  lol

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A skinny vamp!  I like that Donna!   Guess what too?  My hubby brought us home a bunch of those mint cookies!  Apparently someone still had a bunch to sell.  Lucky us, huh? :)

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Hi,

I gave this lots of thought and finally decided that I would change my eyes.  I hate not being able to see clearly, and I am very tired of deciphering blurry stuff.  I'm tired of enlarging the screen or holding things two inches from my face.  I would like to have 20/20 vision again.

Hugs,

Linda

 

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Linda,

Are you able to have your eyes laser?  I had mine done when the lens were cloudy after my cataract surgery.  I don't have 20/20 but I don't need anything but the Walmart glasses to read.  I do need real glasses for driving.  Can't win it all.

Might be something to consider.  Is this the result of eye shingles?  My cataracts were due to using steroids for my uveitis, then it leads to one problem after another.  However, the laser was a plus.

Best,

 

Doris

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I am going through a transition phase, and I am tried of beng so conflicted. i wish I was more clear. I have also been very quick to speak my mind lately, and although I am right i would like to have some finesse about it. I also wish i wasnt so tired all of the time.

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Good question!  I wish I could let things go longer and not want them done right now.  I am kind of bad about that as when I see something that needs to be done, I just want it done right then.  Usually it is no big deal, so, I just need to relax I guess, and, not think that things have to be done immediately.

 

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I am going through a transition phase, and I am tired of beng so conflicted. i wish I was more clearI have also been very quick to speak my mind lately, and although I am right I would like to have some finesse about it. I also wish I wasnt so nbsp tired all of the time.

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Mostly, it's just age and poor vision.  I've worn glasses for distance vision since 8th grade and should have had them sooner.  And now that I'm 'old' I can't see near or middle either.  But the shingles has also changed the vision in the left eye.  I keep waiting for it to get better before getting a new prescription.  But it has been almost 6 months now, so I don't think it's going to get any better.  I have an appointment to see the eye doc tommorrow (a second opinion) but it's on the list to discuss. 

When (not if) I go into remission, I might consider lasik.  I've been told in the past that I'm a good candidate.  I don't know if that's changed with the shingles.  But for now, I'm not interested in additional surgery.  And who knows how long it would take to heal with the chemo.  

That uveitis sounds nasty...but like the rest of your medical stuff you seem to take it in stride.  I hope the chemo goes well for you, and that it works!

Hugs,

Linda

 

 

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For Linda,

Chemo went smooth far better than I expected though I was more nervous for this than anything in the past 18 1/2 years.  I had my mother to worry about in addition.  She bagan to vomit blood from her stomach and they did find blood in that area.  She is going to have an endoscopy today to find the cause.  She is very old, with some dementia so it is a concern to all the others.  We are tough women, we will do it.

My laser was easy.  Done in a doctor's office.  I did one eye at a time due to the uveitis problems and in a window time frame that it had quiet down.  I went in, it's like minutes and you don't feel one things and it's over.  I had the eye covered as I drove home in the dark, with one eye covered wearing tinted glasses.   I had broken my good pair the day before I went to the doc's office.  Driving like blind and I prayed that I wouldn't hit a jogger that was to stupid to have reflectors on.  Then 2 weeks later I did my other eye.  A month later the uveitis was back in full form, so I was gladd that I had the opportunity to have it done in the short frame time.  Uveitis are inflammatory cell in the uvea of the eye and can lead to blindness.  My only drug is Methotrexate with folic acid and that is why Xeloda wasn't available for me to use this time.  It has been over 5 years since I began Methotrexate and since it is finally working, I am not doing anything to disturb it like you.  Leave well enough alone.

Wish you well at your appointment with the  other doc.  Let us know.

 

Doris

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I am going to have to think about this one.  And, I might post more than one.  lol

I'm so very happy with my life, but, I know I've got a few things that might need worked on.  Just a few.. lol

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If I could make wishes come true Linda. I would make a wish that you had 20/20 vision!  I'm going to wish for it anyway..who knows..maybe my wish will come true for you!

 

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First I wish I could control my emotions when I get upset.  I've seen people who get bad news and it doesn't seem to phase them at all but I fall apart just thinking that I might get bad news.  I want to be that person that just walks away with my head held high and at least waits until I get in the car to fall apart.

Second I wish I could get motivated to straighten my house up.  I live in fear that I will die before I get to clean my house but I just can't make myself do anything about it.  I also know that if I ever do get around to cleaning, my family will be convinced that I am dying.

HUGS!!!

Jamie

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Dear Jamie,

No one gets bad news without a reaction.  Some are better than others to camouflaging the news and some just have delay reaction to the shock.  I'm in the last category but I found that even with years of bad news, I fell apart in the oncologist office when I agreed to chemotherapy.  I burst out crying like a school girl who lost her boyfriend.  It totally surprised me, embarrased me and made me feel like a food.  Then I realize that it was ok, to show emotions.  Were human and we all do cry.

My first at diagnosed, I cried 2 minutes as I was going down my hill at the bottom, I said, "pull yourself together or go home to cry".  I knew I couldn't drive that way.  I pull myself together.  I was my children's only caretakers, I had to work, I didn't have the luckury of a good cry because I felt if I did, I wouldn't pull myself together again, so I didn't.  It became a habit to put my life into compartments, doing one step at a time.  

When I pick up my reports on scans and etc.  I picked them up at medical record and wait until I'm in my car alone to read it.  Usually, I know before I read it as symptoms will tell me.  I learn that one sheet is good and more sheets are bad news.  I can tell by feeling the envelope they put the results in.  I never cry because I usually know my news.  That might be why there is no reaction at the oncologist office because I have a plan to offer.  I knew chemo was going to be it, but I had thought Xeloda over Taxol.  Therefore, the shock!

Do what you can, and I don't think anyone will say anything 20 years after your death like "oh, she couldn't keep up with the dust on the furniture" standing over your grave.  Do you honestly believe they will say such a stupid thing?  It will be more like she was "a hard fighter with an awful disease and kept up and did all that was required".  Don't let it bother you if it does, ask for help from your family, from your friends.  Not the time to be to proud.  Stage IV is a leveller.

Best to you,

Doris

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Thanks a lot!  Now I am wanting some of those Girl Scout Cookies!

Anyone feel generous in sending me some of those mint ones?

HEHE!

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They are all MINE!  lol 

Sue Surprised

Pink Rose
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To not be so quick to judge people.  Since having bc, I seem to not be as patient and I seem to rush to judging people much more quickly.  I would change that.

Rose

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My temper seems to be worse anymore and I have to bite my tongue a lot more than usual.  I keep praying for more patience...

disneyfan2008
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wow...I think anything I have control over I have changed-I feel llike I change/ adjust myself but not many other works in return (IF that makes sense)

 

IF issues with family-i try to see my faults (rest in denial)-i go to therapy to work on my issues. Perhaps I could excercise-i never sit still, always on the go. I have been trying to make time for MYSELF...which I never do. So that would be my biggest change. I DID BOOK a cruise in 61 days no kids or grands (2nd adult only trip).

 

Denise

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A cruise sounds like a lot of fun.  Enjoying it and I think they have excercise area that could make you promise to your self come true while  enjoying doing something a lot of others are doing.  It has to be fun otherswise no one would do them.

 

Best to you and starting counting down, 

 

Doris

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Have fun on your cruise Denise!  Where is it going?

 

Leeza

telecomjd
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I need to live my life with more joy and less anxiety everyday.

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Less anxiety would be a good thing for me to change.  Not that I have it all of the time, every day, as I don't, but, when I have my cancer tests come up, it is awful how tense I get. :(

My onco finally gave me an anti-anxiety pill to take prior to my tests, which does help a LOT.

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My onco also gives me nerve pills when I have my mammo, ultrasound and MRI, especially for the MRI.  I really hate that machine!  And, it is so noisy.  Does anyone know why?  I really don't know.

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LOL.  That's my answer for everything.  The machine is noisy or uncomfortable because a guy designed it.  I told my tech at my last (ever) mammogram before my mastectomy that if a women designed that machine, it would like like Daniel Craig, and it would not mind it.  ;-)  Choose another gorgeous male or female celeb if you're so inclined, but my theory still stands.  

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Oh, I like that a man invented it!  lol  I sometimes try to sleep while getting a MRI, but, then you hear that clank clank clank and it is like..ok...thanks a lot..now I can't sleep!

It sounds like someone hitting it with a hammer.  :(

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To understand why MRI scans are loud, you need to have a basic understanding of how MRI works. MRI stands for magnetic resonance imaging. In the simplest terms, MRI machines use extremely powerful magnets combined with electromagnetic fields, and coils which produce radio waves, to produce detailed images of organs and tissues in your body. MRI machines do not use radiation and are non-invasive. They are, however, noisy.

Noise is created when magnetic fields are cycled on and off, and when magnets exert an opposing force to each other. (There are several magnets in each MRI machine.) The noise is not harmful, but some people may find it alarming or annoying. At Zwanger-Pesiri Radiology, we have invested in special sound dampening walls in our MRI waiting rooms so that you do not hear sounds from other scans while you are waiting. While you are having the exam itself, we provide you with headphones to diminish the sound and increase your comfort.

 

http://zpradiology.blogspot.com/2012/11/why-are-mri-machines-so-loud.html

 

Though I did read a wonderful story once by the guy who invented the MRI.  He was laughed at with his idea before the MRI and after he finally fine tuned it and said he did it, people didn't believe him.

 

Doris

 

 

 

 

 

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