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Thank you all for reposes and sucess stories.  I am still having trouble with this ear infection.  The node in my neck where the cancer is has been a hard lump.  Now the whole right side of my neck is swollen and very tender to the touch, but it is not hard, I don't know if it is a reaction to the ear infection or something to do with the cancer or a combo.  I have a call into the doc so now I wait. 

My Mom was dx'd with a cancer of unknown origin and was gone in 2 months, I am so scared. I am in no way ready to go, I feel like I have so much more to do.  I love my husband and he is a wonderful man and father but he cannot raise 5 kids on his own. 

After our 3rd child was born, we thought we were done having children but were pleasantly surprised with #4, then we thought for sure we were done, well along came surprise #5, sadly I lost that pregnancy at about 8 weeks, but we realized we did want to expand our family and became pregnant again.  That was our little Carly Angel, we lost her when i was 24 weeks preganant.  We were devasted and I really didn't think I was going to get thru that.  I prayed and prayed for my body to heal and get strong and for God to give me back my baby girl.  He did, Katie was born 1/29/2010.  I just can't beleive a god who loves me and my children would give me this big family that I have always wanted and then take me away from.  They are too young to be without their Mom, I love them more than anything and would do anything for them.  I am fighting hard, I feel terrible for what my family is going thru because of me. 

Please say an extra prayer for us tonight. 

I am still waiting for the doc to call back...I hate waiting!!


Hugs to all


missrenee's picture
Posts: 2137
Joined: Apr 2010

to you for a good report.  My heart aches for you and your husband and little ones.  It's just not fair.  Please, God, shine down on this family.


Hugs, Renee

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Joined: May 2010

I wish I always had the right words. My heart is breaking reading your post. I want you to know your in my prayers and thoughts. I believe everything will be Ok. Sending my strength to you..

Take care darlin Kay

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