Dec 17, 2012 - 3:22 am
I haven't been posting as much lately because life has come back with a vengeance. It's funny how everything seems to go into slow motion after the cancer diagnosis... or at least it did for me. It took a while to reconnect with life, and just when I thought I was back in the swing of things, my job went kind of sideways. I decided to start interviewing and dealt first with not really being well enough for day-long interviews, then with the fear that no one would want to hire me since I'd been public with my battle against cancer. I work in a small industry, so there was no hiding it... and I didn't want to hide it because it has profoundly changed me.
Then I had a sudden bad stomach pain just before Thanksgiving and ended up in the ER. There I was, looking around, thinking, "Oh. This again." I never thought it was cancer since I'd had a clean PET scan so recently, and it turned out to be gallstones. I guess rapid, large weight loss can trigger an attack. So I had emergency surgery the next day.
And now, a couple weeks later, I'm back in the hospital. Not for me this time, but for my father-in-law, who had a stroke at 58. He's been disconnected from life support and all we can do is try to make him comfortable for the last few hours.
As I was laying in the ER before surgery last month, I was a little afraid but so very glad I was still around to have a gallbladder to remove. I'm sitting in the critical care room now, so very glad this happened after my treatments so I can be here for my spouse.
Life is too short. Whatever happens, another day, another month, another year is precious. I wanted to take a minute to tell everyone here how much your support, and information, and honesty, and kindness meant to me through my treatments... and still means to me. No matter how dark things seemed at the time, I never felt alone. So thank you to the folks who have been walking this road before me and with me. For those of you just starting the trip, know that there's life on the other side.