Dec 11, 2012 - 6:12 pm
Tomorrow my mother meets w/ the medical oncologist for the first time to discuss last week in the ER, said she had a 20 cm tumor, looks like it's coming off of her ovary, looks cancerous, most likely advanced. She has a lot of ascites. The surgeon has already said surgery is not an option right now due to the extent of the disease. She had a chest cat scan, but was not given any results yet. They did a biopsy of her tumor through her belly button, and preliminary results did indicate cancer, though they said they wouldn't tx until final results are in, hopefully before her appt tomorrow afternoon.
I am TERRIFIED of what they are going to tell us. I am assuming she is stage 4, does it even sound possible she could be stage 3? I am terrified they are going to say it is so advanced that they aren't going to treat her at all. I am terrified they are going to say it is in her lungs, in her liver, in her brain - everywhere. I am terrified they are going to give her just days to live. I have never been so scared in all my life. I am spending entirely too much time googling oc, trying to find some silver lining, and I can't find one. This board is my lifeline right now, and I am constantly searching through reassuring posts, which has been helpful. A tiny part of me keeps thinking it's all a mistake, and maybe it's some rare benign syndrome or something. Part of me is looking for a miracle.
20 centemeters? is that unusually huge? Does that necessarily mean it's more advanced?
I don't know how I am going to make it through tomorrow. I really don't. Thanks for listening.