Oct 25, 2012 - 12:22 am
Yesterday marked the 2 month anniversary of my mom's passing and as the time goes on, the void starts to feel bigger. My mom was diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer in late 2005 which later metastasized to the bones, liver and then brain. I flew home to spend her final days with her in hospice and it just broke my heart to see her not able to fight anymore. She's always been the pillar of strength in the family, the fighter. I just felt so helpless but her body was too weak to contain the will she had inside. I was there with her when she took her last breath and it was the most precious moment because she just looked so at peace. I find myself this week in particular, replaying the events of that day over and over into head and I'm just overwhelmed with emotion. There's so many changes going on in my life right now that I wish I could share with her and talk to her about. I'm only 25 so I constantly think about all the exciting milestones she won't be here for, like when I get married and when I have children. Most days I'm okay and I get through, but this week has been extremely difficult for me. I guess it'll take time to heal.