Oct 14, 2012 - 6:08 pm
...well, not a witch doctor, an herbalogist...but my mom always called him the witch doctor when she went to him. She had laryngeal cancer, and went to him before she started radiation...her skin never even got red during her 30 treatments.
I think the reason I decided to do this is this: Everybody talks about the "after treatment, now what's"....at first it's exciting knowing that you're finally done, but now I'm in the "wait" mode again....waiting for 3 months to pass to get a scan. During treatments I was actively fighting the beast...and I think I'm the type who has to feel like I'm still actively fighting...DOING SOMETHING to keep the beast at bay. I was finding myself fine during the day, but once I lay me down to sleep...the cancer committee would convene in my head making sleep something I could only wish for. I just feel better knowing/thinking I'm doing something active to combat my disease.
I didn't really want to tell my husband I was going, but he seems to understand my emotional dilemma...and why I did...more for my emotional well-being with the after thought that maybe this will help my physical well being as well. Don't laugh...LOL.