Oct 13, 2012 - 11:36 pm
I'm already dreading the upcoming holidays. Was in the local Kmart and there are Christmas stuff out already, This will be our first Christmas without our son...we are now at the six month mark. We were thinking it would be good to go somewhere very "unChristmas like" for the holidays. My nephew lives in Grand Cayman and he invited us down for Christmas. On first look, we thought that would be a good idea...tropical setting, etc. However, we have since learned that it is now turning into a bigger family Christmas "event" as now his sister (my niece) will also be there, along with her two adult sons, plus a daughter inlaw and their baby. Now I'm rethinking the trip...I feel that I will have to put on a happy face for this family Christmas gathering so not to be a "downer" for everyone. Plus, (I know this sounds terrible) but I don't want to be around my niece, who will have two healthy sons with her at Christmas. I lost my only son. I know they mean well, but I now want to get out of it. Maybe I just want to stay at home with the curtains drawn and be in bed all day. We have a daughter who lives across the country and I don't know if she will be able to come due to work
A friend thinks I should go anyway...that it could be good for me. Truth is, I don't know how I will feel at Christmas. I doubt that I will put up decorations..