Oct 06, 2012 - 3:25 pm
Hi to my sisters
It's been a while since I posted something. I am in a funk these days...for many reasons. But there is one topic I continue to flip flop with. That is taking Arimidex. I really don't want to take this stuff. It is messing me up big time. I hate the side effects and hate that I no longer feel womanly. I am sure you know what I mean ... my husband misses me. :(
What I just don't understand is WHY I am taking this drug when all my reports favor the idea that recurrence is likely to never happen. I did the surgery and rads and that IMHO should be all there is to it. Of course, most of you know that I have suspicious looking spots on my lungs and the docs just can't answer what these spots are. I have a scan set for November 26 and I am hoping that this scan is the end. I don't want to continue with tests and scans without getting answers. It's breaking me down!!!
So ... I stopped the Arimidex hoping that my old self will surface soon! I even stopped other meds because I hate taking pills. (Metformin, singular, prandin, Crestor). I feel as though I am on a path to self destruction. You know, if cancer wants to make a come back, it will. My RO stated that "sometimes the meds don't work". SO I have no idea if Arimidex is doing its job or not. Why would these nodules be growing and multiplying IF this med is working???
I'm sorry. I am at my wits end and I just feel so dead inside.
Thanks for listening.