It has been one week since I had my second round of chemo and yesterday I finished my last of 6 nepogren shots and let be tell you what a nightmare it has been. I have never been so sick in my life or in so much pain before. And I know pain I have been suffering with R.A for five years now.
At one point my onco had to give me Iv fluids to hydrate me because I was so weak I could barely stand up.
I knew chemo wasn't going to be easy but I figured if I can give birth to two kids and suffer with my RA and side effects from my heart problems this wasn't going to be that much different. Boy was I ever wrong this is the worst thing in the world chemo truly sucks!
Everyone keeps telling me that I am strong and will get through this but I don't know if I am that strong I still have four more rounds to go.
Yes I have a wonderful husband and support system of family and friends but guilt is getting to me for all they are doing.
All of you ladies out there who have gone through chemo already and those still going through it I take my pink hat off to you.
You are the strong ones and I hope I can draw some of your strength to get me through my next round.
I go Tuesday to see if my ever low WBC has come back up and I pray it has because I can't take another ounce of bad news.
Thanks for listening to me vent, this site has been such a huge help for me and I feel like I know all of you as close friends and sisters.
I hope you all are able to enjoy this weekend and are all doing well