Oct 04, 2012 - 8:30 pm
Hi, my name is Ashley. I am 17 years old, and I am a survivor of brain cancer. On April 26,2012, I had a seizure while getting ready for school. They did a MRI and discovered that I had brain tumors in my left frontal lobe. On May 29th, I had a crainotomy. They removed two tumors (Stage 2 Glioma) and a "satellite lesion." Everything went incredibly better than expected, and I was released from the hospital only TWO days after surgery. Six weeks after surgery, at a time that I was supposed to be lying in bed doing nothing, I was able to attend and complete training at the George N. Parks Drum Major Academy. I was very blessed to not have a severe form, and I am currently cancer free, although I am experiencing mild seizures as a result of surgery.
I am a Christian and honestly believe that the way everything worked out was a miracle.
However, my family does not necessarily share the same view. My uncle was diagnosed with bladder cancer a year before I was diagnosed, and he has had an incredibly difficult time. When some of my family members heard the news about my diagnosis, they became angry, not just toward God, but toward everyone.
My best friend was on his senior trip when I got the news, so it hit him in the face when he got back. He was there for me through everything, sat with me at the hospital all day every day, talked to me every night, and prayed for me constantly. (In the process of typing this, he actually called to check on me because he was worried about me since I forgot to text him back.)
I love these people very much, but my cancer has and is still hurting them even more than it has hurt me. I have watched them refuse to eat, cry until they were dehydrated, and worry until they were literally sick over me, and every time I go for a check up, it happens all over again.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm asking for here. Maybe it's prayer or advice. I just can't stand to watch my sickness hurt the people I love any more, and I don't know what to do. I'm only 17, I don't know how to handle this. If you have any advice or anything, it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.