Sep 22, 2012 - 7:00 am
There has been too many stays with each one leaving me worst off than when I went in. this last visit my left leg has swelled up so bad I can hardly walk on it. I came home yesterday and today they delivered my wheel chair it was bitter sweet, I don't like the ideal of being in a wheel chair for when me when I use to walk a mile aday and now I can't walk 20 feet and yet now with the wheel chair I will be able to do more than just leaving to go to appointments only and then back home. I am planning a trip to the casion to play in a poker turnament I have not done that in 15 months since I got cancer and I am so looking forward to doing something that does not belong to cancer. I hope I am not in the hosptail anytime soon. This hospital stay also brought out the fact that I am going to have to go into a group home my parents can no longe take cae of me the wa I ned to be taken care of. I never wanted to go into a group home but I understand where they are comeing from they just can't do it anymore. I am wearing my mother down and she herself is on disability I can't keep doing this to her.I am not happy because I will be leaving the only home I have ever know. There has been to much change in the past ver months and I just don't know how I feel anymore.