Sep 08, 2012 - 2:10 am
Does anyone ever have survivor guilt? I am 28 and had a right partial nepherotomy in January, grade one and two cancer. It has been a long road to normal life, but I have been trying to take life and live every day. Had been doing great and just feel like my new position at work has set me into a crying mess every night. I just feel so overwhelmed, and guilty for living when others didnt. Also some people whom I thought were close friends seemed to disown me this year over stupid petty high school like stuff. All of this seems so hard to process now. Maybe crying is the best way to handle it but my eyes are so puffy now! Hardly a good look for my position at work. Does anyone else seem to notice that their "friends" vanished or dont like the new happy for life you? That is what happened to me. I beat cancer and became a good, soulful, healthy person and my friends dont like it. Maybe I just had all bad friends. But being alone is hardly fun. Ugh time for bed.