Sep 02, 2012 - 7:25 pm
I received an invite to a family get together.. you know the one, aunts, uncles, cousins, the whole sbe-bang..actually it's a 50th anniv party for an aunt and uncle...anyhow,before I even opened the invite I was filled with a sense of dread.... nothing against my relatives.. but the thought of going and my mom not being there.. or my Dad.. just makes me so sad and angry. I really dread the thought of going. I haven't sent my RSVP yet.. I have to by Fri.. my sister is bugging me to go with her. I miss my mom so much. I'm only just now beginning to realize how strong and brave and wonderful she was. How brave thru losing my Dad, going thru chemo, I miss her ... I guess I'll go.... I don't know... How to get beyond these feelings of anger and no fair and why me .