Aug 27, 2012 - 9:32 am
I know that with all everyone is currently going through I have absolutely no right to whine. I have just had a couple of hopeless days and want to not act like everything is fine for one moment.
Don't get me wrong... I am soo happy I am NED for a month now. What I don't know is how do I move on with that status. I know I could be fine forever. I know I could have a recurrence. What really scares me is that it seems everyone on here who was diagnosed as 3C has had a recurrence. That is what I am scared of. How do you move forward with your clean status knowing that at anytime you could be sick again...... This is a struggle for me.
I keep telling myself that I know a girl who was 4B from my docs office and that was 14 years ago and she is fine and has never had a recurrence
I feel like even the doctor thinks it is going to come back because she told me to keep my power port in. We agreed I would keep it in till next Spring. She did however remove my I P port because she said we don't need it anymore.
I flip flop. There are days I feel that I kicked this and I am gonna be fine and there are days when I get the least little ache I think Oh god it is back. I think I have just been off my rocher a bit because my back is bothering me. My sacrililiac (sp?) is bothering me a bit since I over did cleaning last thursday. Wedsday and Thursday I took a short nap in the afternoon and that even made me panic the cancer is back because I havent done that since chemo ended. Maybe I need som
I know that it takes a good year to recover from the hysterectomy and chemo but how do you get past that point when your leg hurts or something that it is normal from the surgery and chemo and not cancer again.
Any help or advice from veterans would be greatly appreciated.
I have a follow up friday for my port removal surgery. Meybe I should ask my doc about getting something to help me. She already has me on ativan but that is only two at night to sleep...
Thanks for letting me ramble.