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tanks to all........al little venting tonight

Bubbs21
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Joined: Jul 2012

Firstly, thank you all for your selfless sharing of your knowledge, experience and encouragement. With your support and armed with lots of research I feel confident about prognosis of localized 2cm tumours in my left amd the credibility of the urologic oncologist I have been referred to. My consult is tomorrow morniong, July 30th at 7:30. So why the hell am I so anxious. The anxiety has been building all weekend. Even in a room of people I feel isolated, lonely and like a volcano about to erupt. I feel like there are insects crawling all over and in my body. I can't sleep and have a constant hunger that I can't seem to satisfy.

Thanks for listening to me vent.

Have a good night all.

B.

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icemantoo
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Joined: Jan 2010

Bubbs,

May the consult go well with no surprises. It s almost time to get thru the initiation as well.

Icemantoo

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dhs1963
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Joined: May 2012

Bear in mind the anxiety you feel is because you a human. Cancer is scary. I know I was terrified after I heard the words.

I could not sleep at night while waiting for the surgery. As for prognosis: a 2 cm isolated tumor has an excellent prognosis, as you know. And there may be options other than a nephrectomy.

For the anxiety at night which is keeping you up, there are medicines that can help. talk to your primary care physician. It is ok to be scared now. But, you need your sleep.

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garym
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Joined: Nov 2009

Bubbs,

A bit of venting now and then is good for you, trust me we've all been there and done our share. Its also normal to feel anxious and afraid before consults, appointments, surgery, and follow-up tests, but it gets easier as time passes. Its all a part of the initiation process to this club that you wanted so desperately NOT to join. We're here for you and we understand. Good luck today.

Hang in there,

Gary

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JackieP125
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Joined: Jan 2012

I am 7 months post-op and still have anxiety some times especially at night. There is not a day that goes by that the word "cancer" does not pop into my head. I hope one day I can put this behind me for good. The above advice to talk to your Primary Physician about meds is right on. Without meds for anxiety and insomnia I would have been an absolute basket case. So call your doctor today. You will be glad you did. Good Luck!

Bubbs21
Posts: 43
Joined: Jul 2012

Well I have signed on for a laproscpic partial nephrectomy with option for open and radical if necessary. Payment due date or the surgery date is to be confirmed but most likely the week of October 29th.

All the advance research not only of the disease but the hospital and the Uro-oncologist, made today's consultation so easy. There were no surprises.

My husband was not able to go to the consultation. So my daughter went with me (she is 22 and we lost both my parents in the last 3 yrs - one had multiple m$ylenoma and the other had lung cancer). It was great. Not only was she a great support. But she has first hand info and knows that I am not sugar coating anything.

It will make family discussions easier going forward.

There is still a residue of anxiety. But I feel so much better with a plan. I see my GP wed to discuss ways to deal with the anxiety. It will be a long wait til Oct/Nov.

Hugs to all.

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icemantoo
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Joined: Jan 2010

Bubbs21,

The good news is that your condition does not present itself with an emergency or seriou condition which requires immeadiate surgery. The bad news is that you have to wait. I'd rather wait than start with more serious baggage and earlier surgery.

Icemantoo

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