Jul 29, 2012 - 12:45 pm
its been just over 9 months since my mum died infront of me in the ICU and i still find it difficult to grasp and get the last week of her life out of my head. my mum went through a bone narrow transplant 6months before she left. she pretty mich got everything you can get from having a transplant and she soldiered through it all and the day before they said she could come home after 6months of being in hospital she crashed again and that was it.. infection just took over her body and she wasn strong enough to fight it and after 4days in ICU and her begging to die my stepdad n i decided to put her on morphine and i stayed overnight for the three days until she went.. my mum wasn just my mum.. she was my friend. my sister. my only perant.
i understand shes at peace now.. it just makes me so angry.. she had a terrible life with my real father and she finally found happiness with my stepdad than she had to get cancer. she fought it once and 3months later it came bak.. my mum is my everything my hope and pretty much my only family. and to loose her just tears me apart. my boyfriend i met just when she was first sick and his amazing but he is it for my support really.. i just feel so lost.