Jun 17, 2012 - 8:28 am
Hi Ladies, had a CT scan 3 weeks agao while in hospital, although they didn't use the IV contrast they were checking for my hernia. Anyway, it showed my tumors are growing, but I knew that because I can actually feel them getting larger. Been thru Carboplatin alone & it did nothing this last time. Saw onc. last week, now he wants me to go on Avastin & Carboplatin. He said being that I'm on coumadin I run a high risk of a preforation with the Avastin & should take the shots in the stomach. I said to him, how can I go thru that when I told you I've had pains/cramps in my stomach, and why continue on carboplatin when it's clearly not working. Well he said to me, there's nothing else. I left his office very upset and spoke to my pcp who explained to me about the risks involved with Avastin & told me to think about it a couple of days. I know when I get the pains, it's when I eat 3 normal meals a day, but I've lost so much weight, I try to keep up my strength. My family is truly upset & I had to get a small transporter wheelchair to help me when I go shopping. I thought about what I was going to do & plan to tell my primary care tomorrow, which is "no more chemotherapy". It's not that I'm giving in the disease but I can't take the chemo, and disappointments any more. I wish I could be as strong as some of you ladies. I told my family of my decision & we realize what will happen, but if it's God's way of taking me, then that's what I want. I went shopping yesterday for a dress to wear & my family is going to start making arrangements for when it does happen. I plan to call the onc & tell him I'm not willing to risk a preforation as my pcp told me it's very bad. So, until it happens, I will just take one day at a time & hope and pray I'm not in too much pain at the end.