CSN Login
Members Online: 10
CSN Home › Cancer specific › Ovarian Cancer

The waiting game (update)

JoWin615's picture
JoWin615
Posts: 103
Joined: Feb 2011
Jun 05, 2012 - 8:24 pm

Hi to all,

Today I finished my last bag of Gemzar, signaling the end (I hope) of my first recurrence. My CA-125 is 7. As I wait for my PET/CT scan on June 18, and then wait to hear the results at my doctor's appointment on June 21, I find myself musing about a few things.

Is it better to take a chemo break and give my body a rest, or do some kind of maintenance chemo to keep the cancer at bay? I am apparently handling chemo fairly well for my age (69 on June 15) - no real problems with blood levels, no drug allergies, etc. Just that eternal exhaustion, and pitifully thin hair! I have extreme faith in my gyn/onc and anxiously await his advice. I guess it will ultimately depend on the results of the scan. Sigh.

Again, I find myself having to deal with that sinking "what next" feeling, just like when I finished my first chemo treatments at exactly this time last year. Everyone says "Yay! It's over! Now you can get back to your normal life!" But we all know that life will never be normal again. I know that it's all relative, and trust me, I am SO grateful to be alive.

Thanks for listening and letting me whine. This board, with all its super-informed and understanding members, is worth thousands of therapy dollars!

Cheers,
Jo
mopar
Posts: 1788
 Joined: May 2003
Jun 05, 2012 - 9:36 pm
CONGRATULATIONS, JO!

What a wonderful feeling to finish that last chemo. But I know how you feel about all the other things you have to deal with. In time, as you know, it will get better. I think we all find that we have a 'new normal', because we've been through so much and you just won't ever forget it. So, moving forward you take one day at a time, sometimes even one moment at a time. Everyday is a blessing to me. None of us know what tomorrow will bring.

You're not 'whining', Jo. And even if you were, this is the place to whine! We all understand.

Lots of Hugs, and Prayers for continued remission!

Monika
mopar
Posts: 1788
 Joined: May 2003
Jun 05, 2012 - 9:36 pm
CONGRATULATIONS, JO!

What a wonderful feeling to finish that last chemo. But I know how you feel about all the o