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lindadanis
Posts: 267
Joined: Nov 2009

Hello everyone, I wanted to share our happy news. We are moving in a month, not far from where we have been for 17 years, but moving to a smaller home,a more afforadable home. My house is on the market and my younger sister has stepped up to the plate and helped us buy this home. Although I have had many tears packing my home that I shared with my late husband, Eddie, whom passed on 9-15-10, I feel that we are making a great move. I have had many tears going through this but there are alot of great memories of this home that we shared as a family and I wanted to bring the "good memories" along with me and leave the "bad memories" right here. I wanted to start planting new seeds are our home and begin a new chapter of my life. I feel like over the past three years that I have been through hell and back, it has not been an easy journey but I have made it through. I have to mention that I would not have made it through without the help of Sherri and Bill Marshall, whom words of wisdom have been implanted in my head forever. The last "party" that I had in our beautiful yard was that of our "renewal of our 25th wedding anniversary" that we did right before Ed passed away on August 7, 2010. It as a beautiful day and I will forever remember it as one of my favorite times in our yard on a beautiful summer day.

Life has been a roller-coaster for sure. Diana is will graduating in a few weeks from college, how proud I am of her. She stayed home the entire year to take care of her dad with me back in 2010 but did return and will be graduating with honors. I will be standing their watching her, so proud, and I'm sure, so sad as Ed will not be standing next to me watching his daughter that he loved so much. I'm sure he will be watching, however, down on us, up from heaven with my mother.

There have been many, many times that I have reflected back on my life two years. How the hell did I do it, how did I go through all of that and still remain sane. How many nights I would cry myself to sleep wondering how my life would go on. Well, I will tell you that I prayed alot and asked God to please help me, push me along to the next step and I believed he has answered. I read many of your stories and one that comes to mind is the post I just read about the lady to is mad at God. Yes, I was mad at him too, very mad for breaking up my family, Ed was so young, I was very, very mad and would not talk to him for a very long time, until one night I was out letting the dogs out and looked up in the sky and saw "two stars" shining bright onto my yard. That night, I knew that was Ed and my Mom looking down upon me and every night since then, those two stars are right up there in the same place. I went through my anger, I'm still very lonely and lost without him, but I have decided that life is a "gift"., something I never really thought of before Ed's cancer. Life is precious, don't take a day for granted, this is what I have learned and I left God back into my life.

Some of my old friends are still on here and I just wanted to let them know I'm ok. I will be O.k. I don't know whats in the future for me but I am still plugging along. I had 25 years with a great man and I wouldn't change it for anything. Maybe someday there will be another great man in my life, who knows??

Love

Linda

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paul61
Posts: 1115
Joined: Apr 2010

Linda,

It is great to hear that you have found a new path and direction for your life. I know Eddie would have wanted you to be happy. Your new home will provide that change of environment that will help you move forward to the new opportunities that life will present. Congratulations on your new home and congratulations to Diana on her wonderful accomplishment.

Best Regards,

Paul Adams
McCormick, South Carolina

DX 10/22/2009 T2N1M0 Stage IIB
12/03/2009 Ivor Lewis
2/8 through 6/14/2010 Adjuvant Chemo Cisplatin, Epirubicin, 5 FU
Two year survivor

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance!

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Tina Blondek
Posts: 1561
Joined: Nov 2009

Linda!!!!!
So happy to see your post. Can't you tell? Great news for you and your new home. I am proud of you for taking this big step. A smaller, more affordable home makes sense to me! Proud of your daughter also! Congrats to her. Best of luck to you all and please keep in touch.
Tina in Va

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mardigras
Posts: 196
Joined: Sep 2011

Hello Linda,
I just wanted to wish you well in your new home.
Look for the positive in your move. Smaller is less to clean and more time to spend doing the things that you enjoy the most. Your new smaller house is also a certificate of how much love your sister has for you. Be happy and make both your sister and Diana proud of you.
Enjoy Diana's graduation ceremony and be very proud of all she has given up and all she has achieved. What a wonderful daughter you have. Eddie will be watching you!
I hope that after all your struggles and disappointment with life, you can find peace, happiness and love in the future.
God bless you,
Prayers and hugs,
Marci

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