Apr 14, 2012 - 4:21 pm
I am very new to the discussion boards, as I was diagnosed on February 14 of this year with stage 4 colon cancer. My initial CT scan revealed a spot on my liver, however a later PET scan showed seven micro-spots. On February 29 I had ten inches of my sigmoid colon removed, along with a host of nodes.
On March 20 - the first day of spring - I began my chemotherapy treatments. Every other week, lucivorian (sp) and oxilyplatin (sp) and 5Fu take home pump for 46 hours.
As with so many of you, I am in shock; still trying to deal with the abundance of information while desperately searching for the one fact that will prove the statistics wrong. That those living with stage 4 cancers can expect to live beyond a few years.
I am young, with no history of colon cancer in my family. If I didn't have cancer, one would say I was healthy. I have an eleven-year old daughter and an amazing husband of sixteen years. I love my life - living, exploring, appreciating. I am just wondering if I will ever reach a point where I believe the words I say: I will overcome this. I will see my daughter grow-up. I will not be a statistic. I will live!
People are not meant to live so close to mortality; thinking they have to cram the rest of their life into two years. There has to be more!
To those who are survivors, you inspire me! With love, faith, good humor, positive thinking, great friends, I too might have such success. =)
I do believe in a Heavenly Father. And I know that he sustains me by his grace, so my courage might not fail me. But just in case I waver, I’ve got my fingers crossed too.
Much love to you all. You are in my thoughts and prayers!